being a mother

I've been a mother for almost two weeks., I've been pooped on, peed on, puked on, farted on, belched on, punched in the face, kicked in the stomach, but through all of that, I still love my daughter more than anything in the world.  Because she's my daughter (and Kyle's).  She's our daughter, the one person that changed our lives forever.  We'll always be a mom and a dad to her, no matter what happens.

It seems just like yesterday I gave birth to her.  She's become the most important person in my world.  She's left footprints on my heart, and I know she has on Kyle's.  She's his number one girl and will always be his number one girl.

We can't imagine our lives without her now.  Sure she is a handful, a big handful, but she's our handful.  There are times that I do miss what life was like being a 22 year old girl without any care in the world, and not having to think about how my actions affected others and now all I think about is Sophie.  She's my main priority now.  There are days that Kyle and I wake up feeling like a zombie, where we just don't have any energy, but the smile she gets on her face, or when she looks at us with her big, gorgeous eyes, it doesn't matter in the fact that she kept us up all night, or the fact that she poops her diaper right after I've changed it.  Or decided that after changing her outfit four times, that once more is perfectly fine.  It's not easy being a parent, especially so young, but I've enjoyed the time as being a parent.  Granted, it will be for life, but Sophie's captured my heart in her tiny little hand.

I know that no matter what I could never give up being a mother.  I truly know what unconditional love means now.  I'm willing to give up anything for her.  It hasn't been easy, but by having her, I've grown up.  I'm no longer the girl I was.  I'm a mom now.  It doesn't mean my life is stopping, but it's definitely changing.  It will always be a changing thing now with Sophie in the picture.  Every day with her is a gift.  I enjoy spending time with her. Sophie is my girl.  And I can't wait till she's older and we can be more interactive with each other.  I spend more time talking to her about nonsense then actually conversing with her, because Sophie's not a big conversationalist yet.  She certainly makes loud noises when sleeping and snores her head off like Kyle.  It's uncanny how alike the two are.  Sophie is our daughter, our pride and joy.

thirty-eight weeks

I feel like a blimp - blimp Liz ready for take off

How far along? 38 weeks, 6 days.

Total weight gain/loss: 26 lbs, lost a couple of lbs.

Maternity clothes? duh.

Stretch marks? so freaking itchy.

Sleep: I'm exhausted, and then I can't sleep.

Best moment this week: Realizing how lucky Sophie is to have Kyle as her dad.
Miss Anything? Running, I really miss running.

Movement: It's becoming painful when she moves.

Food cravings:

Anything making you queasy or sick: I haven't had an appetite really.

Gender: Girl.

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks like a bitch.

Symptoms: Vomiting and loss of appetite.

Belly Button in or out? Half of it's out.

Rings on or off? I should take them off before I can't take them off.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Anxious, I'm ready for her to be here.

Looking forward to: Evicting meeting Sophie

I'm just exhausted all of the time.  I end up sleeping for at least 10-12 hours and it's not enough.  Lately I've been feeling terrible.  I think it's a sign that labor is coming.  Or at least I'm hoping so.

But we still have so much to do!

Install the car seat -  we just did this today, or rather Kyle did and I supervised.

Organize the changing table.

Arrange Sophie's room for the final set up.

Wash all of the blankets we may bring to the hospital for her.

Finish packing the hospital bag.

Clean up the house to get ready for Sophie

Actually do shopping for food for after birth.

We saw the doctor today, and she was very convinced that I'm not ready to give birth anytime soon. Meaning Sophie will be late.  However, we did talk about induction due to my doctor being convinced Sophie will be too large to fit through.  Meaning I could be giving birth Thursday (the possible date of induction).

happy new year!

It is officially the start of the year 2014.

J a n u a r y 1 s t , 2 0 1 4 .

It is also Sophie's birth month.  Whether I give birth early, on my due date, or overdue, we'll be meeting our daughter this month.  I know many people regard the start of the new year, as a brand new beginning to change habits, or to start a new project, etc.  For Kyle and I?  We'll really be starting a new journey.  A journey of parenthood.   Are we nervous?  Yeah, we are, but we're also very excited, to finally meet the one person that has been calling my stomach home for the past 9 months.  So here's to you, Sophie.

thirty-seven weeks - whoa mama

Great way to start off the new year, 9 months pregnant, ready to give birth any time now.  Something I WON'T be repeating next year.  I spent most of 2013 pregnant, now Kyle and I will spend the rest of our lives raising our daughter (well I hope by the time she's my age, she'll have her own family, and we won't be "raising" her).

N e w Y e a r s R e s o l u t i o n s :

1. Lose all of the weight that I've gained in this pregnancy, every single freaking lb.

2. Get back in shape

3. Run the CCC10K April 19th, 2014 with a personal best.

4. And to not gain anymore weight in this pregnancy, because I swear to god.

How far along? 37! baby girl can come any time now - but she'll probably take the full 40 weeks.

Total weight gain/loss: 28 lbs - ick, gained like 5 lbs just from Christmas...Kyle and I both did, at least my clothes are forgiving and allow for weight gain.

Maternity clothes? duh.

Stretch marks? so freaking itchy.

Sleep: okay...not great.

Best moment this week:

Miss Anything? Running, I really miss running.

Movement: She, Kyle and I are both ready for her to be born.

Food cravings: Pepperjack cheese.

Anything making you queasy or sick: She does.

Gender: Girl.

Labor Signs: Braxton Hicks like a bitch.

Symptoms: Uncomfortable has a brand new meaning and I've been getting heartburn again.

Belly Button in or out? It doesn't know what it wants.

Rings on or off? I should take them off before I can't take them off.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Anxious, I'm ready for her to be here.

Looking forward to: Meeting our girl.

So Kyle and I went to the store tonight and guess what we did?  We went and bought pizza related things cause were craving pizza.  It was really fun just going around looking for the items we needed.     Kyle was actually the one who did most of the pizza prep, I just supervised sat around talking to him. while eating pizza, we watched The Wolverine, a really good movie, I'd suggest watching it.  All in all, for being 9 months pregnant, this was a great new years ever day.